Last Blog for English 101

Writing a blog every week was not easy. Sometimes I wrote it late, a few times I had nothing to write about, often though, it helped me understand how I was growing and changing during the first semester.

I can't say I enjoyed writing the blog. Many Sunday's, on my way back to MC, I would shout, "I forgot to write my blog!," then have to run to my dorm room and reflect on a week in which I could find nothing worthwhile to write about. It is difficult to reflect and write about someone who is constantly changing and evolving. I look back on my first few blogs and remember what I was going through. I think the blog assignment helped me get through a difficult time. I had chosen a college I was not sure about, came to school without friends, and began to try to sort out what I was to gain from Mississippi College. The blog helped me work through my thoughts. Even if I didn't write as personally as to let the reader know exactly what I was going through, just sitting down to write and having to reflect and think was almost a therapeutic act.

I had a lot of interesting times this fall, the presidential debate, visiting all of my friend's colleges, going home to a house that isn't really mine anymore, we even had fun in our blog with mine and Jared's pretend breakup.

I know when I am no longer at MC or even in college for that matter, I can read my blog and it will take my back to what I was feeling at that moment. These blogs will always be a look into my life during my freshman year of college, and I hope to enjoy reading them a few years from now. I am sure that on occasion I will have a memory lapse on a Sunday afternoon and yell, " Oh no, I forgot to write my blog!"

13. Can't focus.

So I can count on three different occasions today where I have sat down to study for finals, and end up not studying. I have to learn to focus or this week will end bad. I have test in all of my classes unlike those lucky people whose teachers canceled their test. I know that after I put the work into this week I will be able to enjoy my break more. I cannot wait for Christmas holiday! My mother, two of my friends from college and my little sister are going to New York right after finals! Oh, and my ex's aunt and little sister, which I am hoping isn't awkward. But, I love New York during the winter! Broadway shows, ice skating, snow in Central Park, it really is the best time of the year there! My mother is a complete Chinatown fanatic! My dad refuses to go with us this year, because of the previous trips when we drag him to Soho and Chinatown for hours on end. This year we are seeing Wicked! I cannot wait. We haven't been able to see it yet, and I hear its amazing. Well I just needed to get all of my excitement out, so maybe I can focus on studying now.. ha ha probably not.

12. Home Sweet Home

I had an amazing Thanksgiving break! After eating too much, not resting enough, and seeing all of my friends; I am back at MC for the last of my first sesmester of college. I have to finish this sesmester off well. So that when I transfer my grades are better. I have learned alot these past few months. I can't honestly say I have used this knowledge to my advantage, but I have realized a few things. For example, start to work on assignments so that the night before the due date you don't have to pull an all nighter. I also learned that I have to find a nice balance on friend time and family time, when I go home for these short weekends, I am still working on this.
Although I am leaving MC after the spring semester I don't feel like my time here was wasted. I learned alot about myself here. I know that I can make friends and live somewhat independently. Also, I can now drive all by myself on the interstate! These are just a few things I have been realized during my short time here.

11. My family

In life, I believe we are led to people. They may not be the people we want to be with. But they are who we need. I am lucky. Not only do I want to be around you, I need to be.
When I try to remember how we got here, I can't. All I have are sweet memories. I couldn't have imagined this. Our love is better than my wildest expectations. A group of people, as different as can be, but accepting, forgiving, and better than that loving.
It is true. We should probably all hate each other. Our past contains lies, deception, heart break, we have all at one point in time thrown our hands in the air. But to not only be able to look past this, but to accept and forgive, this is what makes this relationship one for the books.
I have never before felt so protected, loved, picked on, pushed, and mentally stimulated, the way I feel when these people are near. We laugh. We fight. We cry. We live. All of this done passionately and without regret.
I know whatever path I go down in life, I have fans to support me. I know whatever fight is in front of me, I have an army behind me. I have a family. A family I chose. And whatever way my story ends, I know they have rewritten mine by being my friend.

10. Dr. Miller, please enjoy.

*Before you read this, please go read Jared Willis' blog first.

Last night at the KT/ Shawreth Swap, I was skating around the rink, when all of the sudden my (then) boyfriend Jared Willis appears. He thought I was having a hard time so he helped me. We were skating around, dancing and laughing when all of the sudden Jared drops my hand and I fall. I am not happy about this. He starts talking to another KT active and goes to skate with her! Um, excuse me? He is my territory. I am very upset and I go outside to get some air.. Well Jared follows me outside. A very nasty fight ensues, I guess everyone inside heard our screaming, and the KT and Shawreth actives all come outside. Including the little home wrecker! I decided I’d had enough. I pulled her hair, and bit her. The whole tribe got into a huge fight. Jared and I are done. I can not believe I wasted two months on him. I hope him and that little upstart are happy. I would like to tell our entire English class, that you need to choose a side. I will no longer be attending class when Jared is in the room. He will go on Tuesday’s and I will attend on Thursdays. I hope this doesn’t cause anyone in our class distress. Thank you for your time. Team Julia will be meeting tomorrow, to plot ways to ruin Jared’s life.


JUST KIDDING!

Disclaimer: Jared and Julia do not date, have never dated, they only wanted to have fun with Dr. Miller's comments during class.

9. Change

This week was big for America history, our first African American President! I am so excited that one day, I can tell my children I lived through that. What aggravates me is that I will also have to explain to them how some people reacted. I didn't even get on facebook and myspace Tuesday night, because of all the ridiculous status.
If there is one message I would tell everyone its that we are Democrats and Republicans second, first we are Americans. Obama is our president now and we should honor that, no matter who we voted for. In the Bible, King Saul tried to have David killed. David still honored him. If you have not watched McCain's concession speech, I highly suggest you do. He is very classy and the speech is beautiful. If we all listen to his words the transition will go a bit easier.
I guess by this blog, I am saying, please stop hating and saying you are moving away from America. The truth is, America is our home and we should be proud of it. The new President Obama deserves the chance to show us his new policy.

8. Family Vacation

On Monday I remember saying, "I hope this week goes by fast." Well wisher got her wish. It was a blur. I am now a KT active! I got some class work done and I had a fun week too!
On Monday night, one of my best friends that goes to Ole Miss called me and said I wasn't allowed to go to sleep tonight. I had no idea what she meant, I went about doing everything I needed to do, and at about midnight I called her and told her I thought this was ridiculous. I was tired and I didn't want to play her games. She begged me to wait a few minutes longer. So I walked outside, like she asked in the freezing cold. All of the sudden I see her car coming into the dorm parking lot. She had drove all the way from Oxford to see me! She said she knew this week was going to be hard on me and wanted to show me I was loved. I have never been so happy/surprised in my life.
I have the best friends in the world. When people ask me what I dislike most, my new answer is distance. I hate that we are all so separated. In school, my group of friends referred to each other as the "family." There is about ten of us, we have been through thick and thin together. Its hard to be so spread out, we stretch out over three states now. I get to see at least one member of our family every weekend. And this weekend we are all meeting up at Ole Miss! I am so excited to see them.
I guess by this blog, I want to encourage you to find your friends. Find the people that love you for you. That treat you like family, they may not always say what you want to hear, but at the end of the day, your relationships are all you have. I am the luckiest girl in the world. In a few hours they will be here to pick me up, and even though I can't be with them daily; I feel their love every day.